I have thoughts! On things!

Sorry, I'm pretty excited.  I've been traveling in a bit of a fog this month, with some depression, some doubts about my faith (I'm still trying to decide if I'm going to write a post about that), and of course, a lot of change within our family routine. That's been reflected in my blog by the lack of posting. I've pondered and pondered what I could write, and come up with... nothing. But in the last week or so, suddenly, ideas are coming to me, thank God. My thoughts are clearer, less cluttered. Less negative.

And here, I'm going to go straight into a totally taboo social topic.  Money. I might overshare, and if I do, I'm sorry. You all know I operate like an open book, and if you really wanted to know my husband's net worth, I would probably tell you! 

(Don't worry, I don't plan to thwart the taboo that much!)

(At the moment.)

I didn't tell a lot of people; I felt very self conscious sharing it, but in December, I had Lasik. Or, some Lasik, since there were problems that will hopefully be completely remedied this week.  We also got a dog. A designer dog. She was expensive; more than I ever thought I would pay for a pet.

Both of these choices were thoughtful; we didn't rush into them. But I am frugal. And they are luxuries.  And when I pause for even a moment, I feel so self-conscious.

And rich.

When I look at our life, it sort of scares me.  What does one do when one has extra money?

If we invest it, are we selfish?

If we give it away, are we foolish?

(I know there's a middle ground here.  But I'm not sure exactly where it is)

So this is what I'm thinking about.  A proper attitude towards wealth and possessions.

What do you think? Do you feel self-conscious about your financial status, whatever it may be, or do you find it comfortable where you are?

(Please note, I'm not asking what your status is!)